One YEAR

It’s HERE….😭😭😭⁣

Today (1-14-19) I woke up with ONE YEAR of sobriety behind me!!⁣

That is 31,536,000 seconds of sobriety with a lifetime to go! ⁣

Until I made the decision a year ago to quit, I never thought I could do it. ⁣

I didn’t know that I could do holidays, birthdays, vacations, brunches and stressful days without alcohol. Now I know I can! ⁣

People often ask, “Now that you know you can actually go without it, do you think you’ll ever just have a glass here or there?” ⁣

The answer for me is an astounding, NO.⁣

I quit drinking because one drink was never enough. ⁣

I quit drinking because it became a tool for me to numb out my emotions. ⁣

I quit drinking because I thought it was easier to escape in a wine bottle than to face my problems. ⁣

I quit drinking because I was using it as a crutch in motherhood. ⁣

I quit drinking because it made me feel like shit and only magnified the issues that I once thought I was using it to help…calming my anxiety and restless sleep. ⁣

For me, alcohol isn’t an option in my life.⁣

So much growth has happened for me in this last year…and there is still so much healing to come. I’m high on life! 🧘🏼‍♀️⁣

A freaking year, y’all…I’m so damn proud of myself but I didn’t do it alone…⁣

Special thanks to God for giving me the power to take control of my own life. ⁣

To Danny for supporting me and encouraging me every step of the way with unconditional love. ⁣

To my sister Kimberly who started this wild journey with me with very little hesitation. ⁣

And to all of my supporters out there who have done nothing but cheer me on. ⁣

I love all of you and couldn’t be more grateful. ⁣

On to another year…⁣

🙏🏻✨💞🦏✌🏻⁣

PS: For those of you out there struggling to get through the tough days without alcohol…I see you. You are loved and you can do hard things!! I’m cheering you on. ⁣

📸: Photography by Amanda Jones

330 Days

Celebrating 330 Days of Sobriety today 😭⁣

35 Days until my year mark. ⁣

What a freaking blessing. ⁣

I’m sooooo excited, y’all. ⁣

I was recently told that someone, whom I thought was close to me was going around saying that I’m silly for talking about sobriety when I didn’t have THAT big of an issue. ⁣

There are two lessons here I guess…⁣

One being, I think this person is deflecting because they drink a lot and I’ve actually been praying they would change their ways. ⁣

And two, no one truly knows how bad it was because I’m gooooooood at saving face. That’s the case for most people that have an issue with alcohol or substance abuse…not everyone “looks” the part. ⁣

So while some people might not understand my journey, I’m okay with that. It’s not anyone else’s journey to understand but my own. I’m proud of myself. This has been hard…and oh so worth it. ⁣

I’m a better human sober. Take my word for it. ♥️🦏✨⁣

300 Days

For 300 days I’ve chosen SOBRIETY ♥️

I can’t believe it’s already been 300 days without alcohol in my life. I truly never saw my life without champagne, wine and beer.

I didn’t think it was possible. I thought every holiday, event, party, brunch, and stressful day required alcohol. 😔 I was so wrong about that.

In the last 300 days I’ve had:

-No hangovers

-Less anxiety

-More sleep

-More fun

-More inspiration

-More Success

-More love to give

In the last 300 days I’ve started:

-Loving myself more than ever

-Being More present with my family

-To forgive myself and others

-Two new businesses

-To slow down and breathe

Quitting drinking isn’t an easy choice…especially if it’s been a part of “normal” life for you for a long time.

I don’t judge anyone that chooses to drink…even if they have an issue that I see, it’s not my place to judge.

But I highly suggest if you feel like you MIGHT have a dependency of any kind on alcohol…take a hard look in the mirror. Self reflection is the first step. I’m cheering you on.

Sobriety isn’t easy, but it’s truly the BEST thing I’ve ever done in my entire life. 🥰

Broken Chain

I’ve HOPEFULLY Broken The Chain ♥️⁣

Last night was super special for me for obvious reasons…getting dressed up as a family, spending time with friends and watching the kiddos trick-or-treat. ⁣

I couldn’t help but remember last year, as we were driving around on our can-am last night, the same way we did last year through the neighborhood, letting Harrison and his buddies jump off and run up to each house to get candy. So fun. ⁣

Except Last Halloween as we drove around through the neighborhood I had an entire bottle of champagne in my Yeti Tumbler…yes in case you didn’t know an entire bottle of champagne fits in one of those tumblers. 🤦🏼‍♀️⁣

I cringe thinking back of all of the times I’ve numbed my feelings with alcohol. The times I thought it was necessary to drink. ⁣

It’s never necessary. 😢⁣

But Danny and I have broken the chain of addiction that has run in our family. We’ve chosen a different path. I’m so grateful that Harrison will eventually forget that we ever drank anything that he couldn’t share with us. I’m determined to show him that in a world where alcohol, a group one carcinogen, is not a necessity for life. ⁣

I’m not naive that he will be exposed to alcohol, even try it eventually, but I pray he never walks the path I did. With my whole heart I pray that he uses my hindsight as his foresight in the future. ⁣

All we can do is be the example. ⁣

Kids do what we do, not what we say to do. ⁣

🙏🏻⁣

-292 Days Sober-

10 Months Sober and Fabulous

10 Months Sober and Fabulous, Y’all!!

🎉🎉🎉

I will never stop celebrating the months, the random days, and soon years of sobriety.

Over 10 months ago at 9am in the morning a coffee mug like this might have been filled with champagne and orange vitality, claiming to be a mimosa. 🤦🏼‍♀️

So many people don’t understand alcohol addiction, the MANY different forms it can take, and the struggles that so many have that you’d never assume.

Having an issue with alcohol doesn’t mean you’re raging every night, or your hiding bottles of wine in the closet from your family.

Though it can look like that for some, for so many like myself it was simply using alcohol as a crutch and coping mechanism. Not drinking every night but the few days/nights a week I did, I drank a lot. Usually until blackout.

Not wanting to feel or see who I really was. Not wanted to work through the stressful day, but instead drink two bottles of wine to put a bandaid on it.

Not wanting to be present with my ever growing, strong willed child because I was afraid I wasn’t good enough as I was for him.

Not wanting to admit that I get uncomfortable in crowds, or even intimate gatherings because I was afraid to be myself, so I drank to calm the nerves.

Not wanting to truly let myself enjoy the excitement or joy of a situation, so to “celebrate” I would drink an entire bottle of champagne in a short timeframe.

Not wanting to be intimate unless I had a few glasses of wine in me because I was so insecure about my body.

The list goes on.

I had a woman a few months ago message me saying that I shouldn’t be using the word “sober” because I wasn’t calling myself an alcoholic and I wasn’t drinking every night.

I was completely shocked and insulted that anyone, especially a stranger would think they had the authority to label anyone else’s addiction in that manner. I’m never judging anyone that drinks or doesn’t, and it stinks that people are out there criticizing those of us that had issues, that choose not to now. (This happens more than you know)

No one truly knows what has gone on or does go on behind closed doors for those battling addiction. We can speak out as much as we want, but until people can lose the judgement, gain understanding and give grace, then it will stay a taboo subject.

For those new to my page, I’m Echo Summer Hill and I’m a SOBER, Wife, Mommy, Entrepreneur, Spirit Junkie, Inspiration Speaker & Seeker…and so much more.

🦏💫💞

Mexico

I’m not ready to put this on all of my social media outlets yet but need to get it out.

I’m struggling on this trip in Mexico.

It was a surprise wedding renewal.

The surprise was a complete shock, the ceremony was beautiful, but almost everything in between has not been great. Harrison was a wreck the first few days emotionally, and I’ve been in a dark place too.

I feel lonely, anxious and sad. It’s an awful feeling because I know danny put so much thought into this and all of our friends and family have been keeping it a secret for 6 months too.

Few things I keep thinking…

Everyone has been keeping this secret for 6 months. Soooo much sneakiness on Danny’s part. Maybe I feel lied to subconsciously?!? I don’t know.

Also last time I was in Mexico I got black out drunk and made a fool of myself. Not fun memories.

And then I’m feeling lonely. Like all of our friends here are bonding and having fun and I feel left out for some reason. Not their fault just how I’m feeling.

I’m just sad and ready to be home. I hate that I feel this way but it’s how I feel.

Trying to snap out of it. But it’s been hard.

Send some positive vibes my way if you happen to read this. 🙏🏻

8 months

EIGHT MONTHS SOBER TODAY 🎉🎉🎉

8 months ago I decided to start living more authentically, more raw, more real and more vulnerable than ever before. I decided that in order to be my best self I had to break down the walls I felt were causing my mind, body and soul to destruct…those walls were self hate and endless bottles of wine.

To say that these past 8 months have been trying, would be an understatement. There have been many tears and many breakdowns but also an abundance of hope.

😭

The best decision I’ve ever made in my life was the one where I claimed a life of sobriety. I used to be one of those people that didn’t think I could ever kick alcohol out of my life completely…I mean what about holidays, parties, stressful afternoons, or hot Summer days?!? I thought I NEEDED it. 😢

I was so wrong on so many levels.

Living life without numbing out with alcohol is eye opening.

-I’ve learned how corrupt our society is with the way we cram the most dangerous “drug” in our nation down everyone’s throats, and how our society feeds into it.

-I’ve learned who my real friends are.

-I’ve realized that there are a ton of people suffering with alcohol addiction silently behind closed doors too scared to speak up or ask for help.

-I’ve learned that I want to help those people find their strength and voice more than ever.

-I’ve learned that I can use my oils to support me mentally & emotionally like I never knew before.

-I’ve learned that I CAN live without alcohol during any situation no matter how uncomfortable it gets sometimes.

-I’ve learned that I’m a freaking STRONG bad ass woman who deserves to live life fully in her truth.

Best decision ever. ♥️ #Sobriety